why can't i breathe whenever i think about you?

him(10:36:03 PM): well if it counts for anything i do like you

submerge x blue (10:36:13 PM): it counts for a lot.

him (10:36:14 PM): ive liked you for a long while now

submerge x blue (10:36:20 PM): i didnt know that.

submerge x blue (10:36:23 PM): people told me.

submerge x blue (10:36:29 PM): but i didnt think they were right.

submerge x blue (10:36:52 PM): and i couldnt try to like you or anything cos you dated @@@@ and then @@@@ liked you and then you dated @@@@.

him (10:36:51 PM): well now you kno lol

submerge x blue (10:36:55 PM): lol yeh.

him (10:37:14 PM): how long have you liked me

submerge x blue (10:37:35 PM): im not sure.

him (10:38:12 PM): @@@@ told me it has been since that night you me @@@@, @@@@ and @@@@ hung out in @@@@'s driveway

submerge x blue (10:39:25 PM): that mightve been the start. she told me that we were flirting alot and that i should give you a chance and stuff. i told her i'd think about it, but there's always complications on my part.

him (10:39:53 PM): what do you mean

submerge x blue (10:40:06 PM): i mean @@@@.

him (10:40:16 PM): arnt you over him now tho?

submerge x blue (10:42:56 PM): i would like to think so. but, he was the first person i fell in love with. i feel like ive told you this story a million times. lol. uhm, but anyways. @@@@ wants to go out again. and i dont think i want to. which is why i think im over him. he and i are friends though. also, @@@@'s not the only problem. i seem to break up with people a lot. and you arent the kind of person who can handle that. that sounded mean. sorry. i dont mean it in a mean way.

submerge x blue (10:43:34 PM): but it could always be different being with a different person. i tend to overthink everything.

him (10:44:03 PM): thats what is holding me back

him (10:44:16 PM): becuz i kno your past relationships

submerge x blue (10:46:34 PM): yeah. and im not proud of them at all. @@@@ brought up something i never rly thought about the other day. it seemed so obvious though. he says that he thinks i have a commitment problem. that im scared to have a long relationship even though i want one. and also, im scared of someone unfamiliar. @@@@ and i were together so much that i knew everything about him. how he would react to something, what he would say, what he wanted. all that. im scared of not knowing everything anymore. and my past with @@@@ has made me scared to love someone again.

him (10:47:35 PM): i can understand that. i feel kinda the same way