i posted this olddd pic of me cos i went back to my old blog and i think i looked like this at one point while on blogster. haha.
anyways, i went back and read my old blogs(i had three, geez) and all my friends old blogs. man, i was a reallll bitch back then and so were some of my friends. damyumm. it was all dramaa drama drama. and we were all so dorky. haha. wow. okay.

will we ever feel this real again?

so im running out of things to talk about. ive started putting up random pictures. the picture above doesnt even have anything to do with this post. haha. im the one with the blue hair and tanktop of course. :) but yall rly should tell me what you want to hear about. i mean, ive never been this clueless about what to say in my life. wow. i think im going to go check my old blog on blogster.com. i dont remember the login stuff but im going to try to search for me. haha. have any of yall ever used blogster? its pretty chill. :) i might get a new blog. somewhere else. no one ever talks on here. and no offence, but on blogster people are much more talkative and you dont have to have some popular blog to get blog cmnts. geez.

its been awhile since i last saw your pretty face.

these are just some things to interest you in,. i know its not much, especially because none of you know me. haha.

ahhh choo!

The Sneeze.

i was looking through a few blogs as i had become bored with myspace and stumbled across this rather intriguing site/blog. im not entirely sure what it is but i do know it was interesting enough to keep me reading for an hour plus. if you have the time, you should check it out.

Live Free or Die Hard

wow. that was an amaziiiing movie. it's definetly worth your money. i dont want to ruin it for you so i wont tell you what happens. but i will say this, i normally don't watch action movies but this one was absolutely awesome. i loved it. and so did my friend that went with. everyone in the theatre was like "GASP" when something gasp worthy happened and everyone laughed when something funny, of course, was said. it was a rly great movie. especially considering it had the whole theatre feeling the same emotions. woww. you should go see it. right now.

why can't i breathe whenever i think about you?

him(10:36:03 PM): well if it counts for anything i do like you

submerge x blue (10:36:13 PM): it counts for a lot.

him (10:36:14 PM): ive liked you for a long while now

submerge x blue (10:36:20 PM): i didnt know that.

submerge x blue (10:36:23 PM): people told me.

submerge x blue (10:36:29 PM): but i didnt think they were right.

submerge x blue (10:36:52 PM): and i couldnt try to like you or anything cos you dated @@@@ and then @@@@ liked you and then you dated @@@@.

him (10:36:51 PM): well now you kno lol

submerge x blue (10:36:55 PM): lol yeh.

him (10:37:14 PM): how long have you liked me

submerge x blue (10:37:35 PM): im not sure.

him (10:38:12 PM): @@@@ told me it has been since that night you me @@@@, @@@@ and @@@@ hung out in @@@@'s driveway

submerge x blue (10:39:25 PM): that mightve been the start. she told me that we were flirting alot and that i should give you a chance and stuff. i told her i'd think about it, but there's always complications on my part.

him (10:39:53 PM): what do you mean

submerge x blue (10:40:06 PM): i mean @@@@.

him (10:40:16 PM): arnt you over him now tho?

submerge x blue (10:42:56 PM): i would like to think so. but, he was the first person i fell in love with. i feel like ive told you this story a million times. lol. uhm, but anyways. @@@@ wants to go out again. and i dont think i want to. which is why i think im over him. he and i are friends though. also, @@@@'s not the only problem. i seem to break up with people a lot. and you arent the kind of person who can handle that. that sounded mean. sorry. i dont mean it in a mean way.

submerge x blue (10:43:34 PM): but it could always be different being with a different person. i tend to overthink everything.

him (10:44:03 PM): thats what is holding me back

him (10:44:16 PM): becuz i kno your past relationships

submerge x blue (10:46:34 PM): yeah. and im not proud of them at all. @@@@ brought up something i never rly thought about the other day. it seemed so obvious though. he says that he thinks i have a commitment problem. that im scared to have a long relationship even though i want one. and also, im scared of someone unfamiliar. @@@@ and i were together so much that i knew everything about him. how he would react to something, what he would say, what he wanted. all that. im scared of not knowing everything anymore. and my past with @@@@ has made me scared to love someone again.

him (10:47:35 PM): i can understand that. i feel kinda the same way

catering! in the rain.

i had to work a catering today. technically, it didnt start until about 6:15, but we got had to leave the restaurant to get to the place in Charlotte around 3:30. the drive was rly long, and we had to set up everything. but, all that is beside the point. the clothes i wore to the catering are more the point. the uniform is shorts/pants, flip-flops/tennis shoes, and a white Riverview Inn tshirt. well, we get everything out and people start coming. the food is cooking, im doing good at being a tea-princess or tea-bitch. [that's what they call my job. haha] but of course, a huge thunderstorm appears out of freakin no where and it pours rain. i mean, POURS. its coming down in sheets. my co-tea bitch and i are freaking out cos we're both girls and our WHITE tshirts are drenched as well as everything else we are wearing. plus, we had to get the tea and anything else we could salvage to safety. it was, to say the least, chaotic. all in all, it was a pretty interesting catering and by the time we left i: was drenched, had makeup running all over my face, and had blue hairdye all over my tshirt cos of the rain. well, on the way home, my co-tea bitch and i wanted something to go to Dairy Queen. of course, none of the ones that we pass are open. so we went to the grocery store and bought energy drinks instead. this would be why im still up at 230am. hah.